Obsessed and Stressed

© Oct. 29, 2014. All Rights Reserved.

I’m obsessed and stressed.
I confess. She’s mine.
With her, I’m blessed,
But I’m unrested.
Life’s then tested.
My home’s infested.
I’m in the back line,
Confined in a box.
I can’t move the rocks.
These chores won’t work out.
My food makes me shout.
I can’t even sleep.
Without her, I weep.

How does that make me feel?
Like killing and slashing.
Smashing and drilling you.
You’ll know that I’m real.
Crashing into you.
Dashing from the clue.
All I see is bashing.

The harsh mistake comes out.
My feelings are ignored.
How long can people doubt?
I know the route to pain.
I’m a train-wreck, insane.
I have nothing to gain.
And nobody helps me.
I dwell in a doghouse.
I’m outside my loves blouse.
No future as often.
Clockwise for life’s twin.
My interview’s my death.
I surpass my last breath.

Once a Month

© Oct. 27, 2014. All Rights Reserved.

Because I’m multitasking, I will post to this website once a month. Me multitasking will not stop the timely event when I say who the woman of my dreams is. Is she a celebrity? Only time will tell. One thing is for sure, she changed my life, and I need her to notice. … I’ll do whatever it takes.

Smoking at the Gas Station

© Oct., 25 2014. All Rights Reserved.

When I was approximately 8-years-old, I was in the backseat of a car at a gas station. The problem was that in the front, my mother was smoking a cigarette. I never saw her smoke anything before and the area did not explode. I knew not about chemistry at such an age, so it was just a normal day to me. As I reflect on that event, it is complicated to successfully finish telling the story. Oftentimes, I may have too many flashbacks to think properly when it returns to my memory.

Soon Come Ouija Ouija

© Oct. 24, 2014. All Rights Reserved.

All I can afford,
Is an Ouija board.
I don’t praise the Lord.
Words can get me bored.
By the waning moon,
I beg answers soon.
I chant before tears.
They’re dying to greet.
It may take me years.
Heat burns at my feet.
As I speak, there’s fears.
Weird is feared within.
I watch the board spin.

Satan’s Map

© Oct. 23, 2014. All Rights Reserved.

Fracturin’ your body from
Brooklyn to Chicago.
Your puke is leakin’–I can’t
See your Adam’s apple.
Plenty ways to kill–the Red Sea
To every damn threat.
Molestin’ your eardrums until
They starve from the flow.
Breakin’ your gimmick from breaths
To Nazareth’s shackles.
Tacklin’ your jugular like
A muscular jet.
Inspectin’ graves until you show me
Respect, ho.
Know I’m omnipotent in your
Grandmother’s pussy,
But just like your eleven daughters’,
They’re all roadkill.
Cannibal deals to sanctimonious
Phonies.
Subtle smiles in the valleys–I
Chop the trees.
Fuck what you have, psych. You
Give me your goddamn money.
Ain’t nothin’ funny, but your wife’s
Titties when I stretched.
You bring your whole squad–I’ll tell
Them to go fetch in dirt.
Six feet deep on no alert–yet,
I stab embryos.
Bury your pregnant sperm, and
They’ll hate their ancestors.
Killin’ brothers and sisters–a
Thousand lunge attacks.
Before you bear witness, you’ll have a heart attack, bet.
Givin’ granny a curfew so she can Suck my dick.
Roll over, and she’ll dance doin’ a Halloween trick,
But I was a decoy. I took her pride–Open wide.
Suicide, she wants to do, but I
Give her some pills.
Stimulation, to climax,
To ejaculation.
So, if you’re still yappin’, then Bitch, it’s retaliation.
So tough, I don’t need to
Rhyme. Don’t need medication.
Fighting words go
Beyond penetration.
Your mouths movin’ but you ain’t Talkin’ about Satan.
Six, six,, six. I say
Words that’ll get under your skin. Makin’ your casket into
A firework display.
I won’t accept apologies,
So there’s no off days.
It’s no phase, but your life a maze.
You run astray.
You’re of clay and blood after I crush you in ashtray.
You’re as flawed as concrete cracks,
Until I break and shake.
Eradicate every year as a fucked
Atmosphere.
Don’t yap about your experience,
For I got more.
Younger or older, you’re gettin’
Opened like a cage.
I seek suffering. I inflict pain
Beyond rage.
I don’t care if you’re hardcore. What are you breathin’ for?
I introduce syringes galore
Like a market.
I steer the wheels until death
Crosses your head and shits.
And if you’re a vampire,
I’m the on with the stake.
I’m leavin’ your body in a lake
Of a red school.
Takin’ drastic actions for satisfaction
At will.
Or does fate make me consume you Like A plastic meal?
Follow me, and I’ll bust you
Like an ornament tree.
There’s reason’s why I’m not
In the penitentiary.
Instinct to kill on contact
For paper bills and fun.
Telekinesis to your
Body–don’t need a gun.
Aimin’ like a ricochet
On a survey mission.
Blowin’ out the votive
Candles–there’ll be wishin’.
Mutilatated bodies in a snowstorm
Of quicksands.
Selective energy inflicting
Punishing hands.
I’m a soldier alone, but I
Got my squad livin’.
You’re trespassin’ by breathin’
Like fictional murderin’.
Make a run for it, but you’re
Losin’ Earths gravity.

Randomness #11

© Oct. 23, 2014. All Rights Reserved.

I know I speak about love a lot. I know the world doesn’t know me. Am I relatable? Why should I matter? Just when they say express yourself and be yourself, nobody listens. Like a series of novels, I plan the future. Behold, I know what the rest of the world doesn’t about a mystery. Only I wish this is a joke.

There’s a reason why I can’t just show my face all over the internet. Crazy story… If I’m so different, why am I not happy? Yes, I want to kill people for real, but don’t we all? In order to have love, we must eliminate evil. Such a topic makes me think about the innocent children born with diseases, suffering from abuse, and getting wronged by authorities. And it is said by someone that no parent wants anything bad to happen to their children. Hmmm…

When the Hail Grieves

© Oct. 20, 2014. All rights Reserved.

The following words are about the “someone” that I want. That someone, I won’t mention until I receive the confidence to say her name in the future:

Love me when the hail grieves.
I am a winter breeze.
I am unloved with time.
I am see-through for trees.
I am what cannot sneeze.
I am motion at ease.
I am what cannot cure.
I am a winter crime.
I am without good leaves.
I am sickness as pure.
I am sure no one sees.
I am the coldest touch,
Until the hail rapes much.
I am what cannot show,
Oh, but I know the freeze.
I am a single tour.
I am the false hero.

Limping for God’s Arms

© Oct 16, 2014. All Rights Reserved.

Limping for God’s arms,
But pressure’s with charms.
Breaking with downfalls,
And lessons are walls.

Where could this God be?
Where in a sobbed sea?
The water gets thick.
Strict ways to breathe slick.

Luck for no bad fish,
For they grow and wish.
They bite with their might,
But I’d cook with sight.

No one could cease me.
Now, I’m devilry,
But God, show mercy.
I can’t feel alone.
These voices can’t be.
Thus, my heart’s of stone.

Limping for God’s calls,
But pressure’s with wet crawls.
Betting with no eyes.
And living hard dies.

Swimming to kill sharks.
Extinct are their marks.
I eat the tender.
I won’t surrender.

Hope for the good fish,
But they still can wish.
They change, and they fight.
I kill, for I’m right.